As of the writing of this text (autumn 2017), I have finished the layouts for five cuts for the Return the Favor animated short film. However, by now, I actually should have finished seven.
According to the schedule, I need to finish 23 cuts by the end of the month. Without that, the next stages are in trouble.
The pressure usually leads me to work hard but I am not happy doing things with so much pressure!!
To deliver, I must say 'no' to things that take me time and are (right now) less important than the animation; work harder during the time that I am supposed to be focused on layouts; cut my perfectionism so I can get it done on time.
Planning a way out to be on schedule again doesn’t necessarily take the stress from me.
The stress doesn’t originate in the amount of work but from my fear on not delivering to my own expectations.
I put myself goals of what I haven’t done before so I can level up. That is what gives me (in other people's eyes) great results: I always* achieve more than last time even if it is not what I really wanted.
*always, because they don’t see a result when I fail.
BUT HAPPINESS IS MY CHOICE.
So, I choose to work really hard and stop myself when I start pressuring myself with my thoughts. When I let those thoughts run loose, it normally ends up in poor health habits such as eating too many sweets or lack of proper sleep, etc.
I choose to be happy about going up while fighting full speed NOW.
And I will feel bad if I procrastinate UNLESS I specifically allocate myself that time for resting (yes, I schedule rest time. It works well).
I can’t keep making myself happy 100% of the time (I am pretty EMOTIONAL). But I'll do my best to make it not just for me but for the people who support me.
Every time I suffer, those people worry for me as well! And I could think that "it is their job as friends", but instead I want to appreciate them and put in the effort when I need to go up emotionally again.
When you are stressed and unhappy you affect yourself as well as others. If making a choice to be happy and force the positive feelings to deal with stress is difficult for you sometimes, then do it for the people you love!
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I am Believe in Fake Magic’s author, but I am a human just like you as well!
Thank you for being around!
PSSST! This content was previously shared in a Newsletter months ago. It has been modified to fit here.